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What has gotten Syn angry about coding today??
NOTHING!!! EVERYTHING IS WORKING IN MY FAVOUR!!! And it works on mobile again!!Things I want to add: Animanga corner (tracker), crochet page (display + thoughts)
The digital coffin of a 116 year old vampire. Please enjoy this browsing experience.
About Me (wip) || Oc Corner (hasn't started progress yet) || Crochet Pavilion (wip)
15/09/24
So. College has definately been something. Before, I was really not doing well with the shift from school -> college and I literally cried because of it kind of however I crocheted in college and changed one of my classes and now I feel like i'm only a few levels away from being a pinterest aesthetic. I do still feel very much like a fish out of water but I'm getting used to it steadily and all I really need to do is make more friends or become so lonely that I focus on being aesthetic.One thing that is definately going well is the flare/flounce/bell sleeve shirts I have are really nice and make me feel very vamp so I really need to buy more clothes because I look like crap 99% of the time. I think I aim to be as a person that's like, vampire that crochets and during breaks they fucking like phantom lurk around places like town or the college however, my personality clashes with that idea. I really don't know what to really do during my breaks since I think I want to save most of my studying for home (that reminds me that I have yet to complete my shedule for the weeks to come. uhhhh) but I really want to crochet at school and the only problem is, I have no big project I want to work on.
07/09/24
Well. Things have not gone in my favour recently. I'm really not happy with how life has been going ever since I started going to college. Friendships drifting away, friendgroups up in flames, finacial worries and maybe a lot of personal displeasure. Up until college, I've had a school uniform (the british life ig) and now that I'm no longer in secondary school, I have to actually worry about what I wear which then brings the question what aesthetic I want to embody which then raises another question who the actually fuck is Syn. I wish I had an idea of how to go about feeling more like me however I never really thought about myslef for long enough to know shit about myself. And recently, with the start of my friendships kinda drifting, I realize that I don;t really have people to really talk to and consider as like very close to me. Yes, I have online friends but I don't talk to them often. This is one the moments where I start hating myself as well wooo. Today, I really wanted to get into a piece of media surrounding vampires because I like vampires however I don't think there's many light novels I could care about. I wish I was just majorly different from who I am today because at this rate, I'll just want to disappear from society because I hate myself too much to be perceived.
02/09/24
Ok so.. Day 3 of college and things have started to get better... I hope.I really do like the level of Independence college has and also the time blocking since I HAVE ONLY ONE CLASS ON TUESDAYS WOOOO however I might be a little salty that I have to bring my laptop for History.
Lets talk fashion. I am a fashion disaster. My default fits is literally the same but with a different top and trousers. So I'll need quite a while before I can freely make nice outfits which means I need like more rui gao studying Wahoo. Even though I don't really need to write this down, I'm going for a very modern vampire vibe where I wear graphic shirts but still have them flare? flounce? bell? sleeve vibe and obviously in mostly black.
29/08/24
Ok so the art turned out really nice except Instagram quality sent it to oblivion so one day, I'll make a page where I just upload all my art after I post it on Insta so it can be In a higher quality so you can see the details.Anyway, I'm now in a sour mood. I was going to rant about why I'm in this sour mood however, I feel like it's too personal for it to be avaliable for all to see so all I need to do is look at my site because it's so pretty.
I'm starting college tomorrow and I'm scared. So scared that I've decided I'm going to sleep and wake up early so I can be fully prepared for everything. I say this despite knowing that I'm currently procrasinating doing my History summer work. I really should be getting to finish it so I can actually journal my thoughts so I can rid myself of this foul mood...until it happens again.
26/08/24
I fixed all my piercings. Now NONE of the backs are stuck in my ears anymore!!! Also I'm trying to draw more for the next year because my disciplined attitude of drawing biweekly was amazing that I need to go back to it. However, drawing is really hard and today, I'm working on a new colouring style of an artist I follow. I'm scared :)
22/08/24
I passed my exams and enrolled into college. yay
19/08/24
Ok so 3 days until everything goes to (most likely) shit. Anyway my ears keep swallowing the backs/stoppers of my new piercings which is bad because I want to switch them, I'm going to go through a lot of trouble of taking away the backs from my ear after the piercings had fully healed. PienThe urge to be transmigrated into a historical fantasy manhwa where I am a vampire living in a well kept mansion on the smaller size where I learn the wonders of magic while also living through an amazing yet simple romance. In reality, I couldn't survive there without internet access. Modern fantasy whennnnn.
17/08/24
I do not know if I should just make the animanga corner just an oc corner because I doubt that many people would actually give me anime/manga recommedations and I doubt that I'll actually need to make it an entire page when I could just make a scuffed discord channel in my priv server. Now that I think about it, it feels as if I'm actually someone with some significance. (SIGH we are gonna be delving into mind today)Ok so, I feel like a background character most of the time since I see myself with nothing unique or anything makes me feel like I am actually a person. (Like I don't see myself as being worthy of being named yet aka background character #635 syndromeeee) However, ever since I came back to properly work on my site again, the 9th of August, I now realize that 'Synthetic' is actually a person who is unique (albeit not by very much). I don't know how much of this feeling is actually me feeling like Syn or me feeling like I am someone else but I probably wouldn't have felt this way without coming back to this site.
Edit: Turns out marquees aren't broken for me however the "alternate" behaviour won't work for marquees going up or down. Probably only for left and right which is unfortunate.
Linking back to yesterday's events, the way I would've preferred to actually bleed than lose one of my earrings. Pain is nothing in the long game but get in between a person and their favourite earrings, you break a person.
16/08/24
Well. Today was surely eventful. Today was really just a series of unfortunate events for me and the only positives of today is waking up at 3am(not the goal but close to it) and making good progress on the crochet pavilion page.
15/08/24
Y'all don't know how I hate how my body behaves. I had to FORCE myself through sleeping 5 hours because my sleep shedule was wack during the summer however, in the early afternoon, WITHOUT FAIL, something happens. Be it my eyes hurt, my eyes feel heavy or whatever, I end lying on my bed only hoping that I don't sleep since I still have energy. Next thing I know I wake up at 11:43 P-FUCKING-M meaning I literally will struggle to put myself back to sleep. I have 7 days to get my shit back together since I have to get my literally results AND ENROLL TO A COLLEGE on the 22nd (on the same day that it's my dad's birthday). I am rightfully upset that this keeps happening. Another thing that annoys me is that no one tries to wake me either. Recently, it's been harder for people to even notice I'm asleep since 1 part of my family just hasn't come home in a few days and the other enjoys being alone way too much which is my mom. She uses herself as an example that "because she doesn't 'disturb' me, I shouldn't disturb her" however there's one thing that makes this really flawed. I *want* to be disturbed. Anyway, we're were going into family territory which isn't what this blog is intended for.Edit: I guess I should be making a joke out of this situation since my theme/motif of my site and general aesthetic is that I am a vampire so obviously it would be working against me...
14/08/24
Ok turns out that marquees are actually easy and all I needed was to add more sites however, it seems that I'm stuck to the amout I have now because then it just flows out of the div and I am not in the mood to go and fix it lmao. I also plan on making a crochet page eventually since I have crochet as a tag for my site. Maybe I should figure out how to add music to my site because I think it would bring my site together nicely and become more homely for me. SIGH I'LL NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW IT'LL WORK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.Edit: I looked at how MonsieurDoll did it for a second and the amount of work it needs is abysmal. Yeah I'm not doing it today........................
10/08/24
I really want to make other pages for my site because I really don't want to work the marquee, partially because I would have to find other sites to link and I just don't feel like doing that however I have no idea what other pages to add since people usually have shrines but I hold nothing dear to my heart or my head to do that. Also I have no idea how to touch type lmao.
09/08/24
It's been literal months since I've last touched my site and recently I've kinda had a slight mental reset and reflection. So I now am just going to be my most authentic self just because before I think I was just trying to be cool because I always looked at people cooler than me. So I hope that I can update this site nicely less for the reason of wanting people to see but more for making this place like my perfect coffin (since there's only so much I can do about my real life space.)I am worried since I have no actual media that I could say that is like my biggest/main interest but I hope that one day I can fimd or make something that really holds a dear spot in my heart. Also I have 9 piercings now and 7 of them were done in basically 1 go lmao.
I keep adding more things to talk about but I really am just yapping because it's been a while since I've reflected about the online version of Syn. I forgot what I wanted to talk about lmao. I've been listening to more vkei recently, bands like DADAROMA and gulu gulu even tho one is disbanded already however they don't fail to make me feel like I'm at endgame Syn.
09/11/23
So it's been a hot minute since I last touched my neocities and now I have a desk!! Super happy. Also in the same span of time I also now have a Mayoi plushie which is next to me as I write this. At this momemt of time, I'm going to tackling marquees but god knows if I'll be able to do it. OMG I forgot to mention that now I have a PURPLE pinstripe jacket that has a corseted back!! Very Mayoi core but me and mayoi kinda have similar aesthetics (well I guess when it comes to ideal fashion)
16/9/23
Do you ever just stop yourself from drawing for crazy amounts of time because you don't like how your art is now? Yeah me too but I know the only way to improve at art is to practice however I'm going to wait until I get a desk because using my bedside table as a desk ain't good. I usually shrimp a lot. I also need to get an external keyboard because I have to REALLY shrimp to type these messages and I need better posture than a shrimp. I really like drawing if only I didn't get frustrated trying to start a piece, lack anatomy knowledge, getting frustrated by how long it's taking me to finish a drawing and lacking ideas but those are things I hope to change because they're mostly all fixed by practice. Ok I just sat straight on my chair and the feeling in my back says that I NEED to get a external keyboard SOON. LMAO.
15/9/23
I was right. Ep11 of Link Click S2 has left me a broken man before school.Basically I was scared of everything while I was watching it and I was rightfully so in doing that. The end of the episode had actually got me to cry and not be strong but then I get fucking WHIPLASH. Like, I don't think anyone in the link click fandom expected what happened then. Don't ask the link click fandom what went down in ep11 they will cry. AAAAAA BUT EVERYTHING IS IN DISARRAY AND IT WAS THE CHARACTER WHO LEAST DESERVED IT. Crying myself a river to drown myself in. Actually at this point, it's just a battle Royale or just the hunger games because anyone and everyone could get rocked. Also when I finished the episode, I wanted to fall on my back to dramatize it but it actually hurty back more than I expected but thankfully it was short pain. Oh no... I have to tell Maru about Link Click ep11 and for all I know they'll start crying after school too.
14/9/23
Okay it might be a little counterproductive to make a blog on this site because I already bought a journal but maybe this blog will just be about anything exciting that involves my interests like how tomorrow I will simply perish Minecraft style when I watch ep11 of Link Click Season 2.
Because of everything that went DOWN in link click so far, ep11 will actually destroy me and ep12 ,that's coming out next week, will have me jaw wide open. I can already see it ಥ_ಥ. I will be the shell of a brocken man..... /j.
really need to stop getting myself into media that deals with time travel or anything about changing time because it's actually just pain because you always want to have things change but can't, then there's the fact everything gets 10x more confusing because I start thinking about the origin timeline since for some reason I think there's multiple timelines and are just playing after the previous timeline.
But I haven't played enstars in a bit and I need to be prepared for any way to get dia because in a years time, I'll need 24k dia so I can definitely get tour day mayoi and tatsumi. When I do get tatsumi, I'm scared that I'll actually have to read the story because IT'S THE DAMN OBBLIGATO CARD o(ㄒoㄒ) I'm really scared of knowing what went down with past tatsumi and I'll cross that bridge when I get there.
13/9/23
Woooo! First blog page probs gonna be going crazy about thing other than mayoi because I plan on making a dedicated page just for her!However just so that I can release some of my chaotic mayoi lover nature,I will breifly speak aboaut her.
First thing is his pronouns, I actually like all variations of mayoi so I actually prefer to use he/she/they pronouns for Mayoi since they all have a fluffy idea to me and I can still have many moments that are super happy depending on which set of pronouns are used;
Another thing about mayoi I like is that they're purple, okay booo throw tomatoes at me but I can't deny that part of my affection for her is because of their hair colour but honest to tatsumi its only less than 25% (i hope) You can't blame me for having purple as my favourite colour and then liking MOST purple characters in anything. I mean Shenzi does it with blue characters!! Our brains are distant cousins frfr.
Anyway the third thing I like about mayoi is how kind he is, Mayoi may have their general thing being about how self depricative she is but she cares for his unitmates quite a lot for intsance, taking on the role of mother of Alkaloid even though she doesn't see herself fit for it, offering to knit mittens for Hiiro, being the choreographer for Alkaloid, making adjustments to choreo keeping mind of Tatsumi's leg injury and pushing themself for Alkaloid to shine;
Ok I might like Mayoi a little, guys. But seriously tho I believe that Mayoi has actually made me a little better as a fan of media because I would always say (insert character) is my favourite but I wouldn't really be willing to do a deep dive about them and only deep dive in the moment when my brain makes connections but now that I have Mayoi, I feel like I genuinely have a favourite character that I deeply adore.
This site will forever be a wip wahooooooooooooooooo